Anxiety and Depression

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Anxiety is fear, while depression is sadness feeling of a patient. A person with this kind of sickness often have no appetite (my weight decrease from 43kg to 39kg), sudden anger  decrease sexual desire, heart throbbing fast, lost of interest, social fear (feel afraid going to shopping mall, shops, even unimas), effecting daily activities (find myself difficult to attend class especially on Monday, increase absentism even during Industrial training with at least one sick leave a week for 2 months, difficult to cope with studies, slow motion even barriers in getting the lessons for today with a pendrive, at home too), difficulties in human relationship (unable to maintain a relationship or a good relationship with others due to how I feel towards others and how I see others especially friends but mostly ignore or play dumb helplessly yet interaction totally discontinued 2 years after, uncontrollable behavior even though I know what is the consequences), changes in behavior (being more quiet, loner, changes in attitude and etc), thoughts of death (hardly), and suffer from level 10 of pain if the pain level range from 1 to 10 with severe pain in head at all times, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Mental illness occur as a result of stress and pressure. The main pain comes from the head due to great pressure. Anxiety&depression which has fully recoved is believed to be cause by physical and mental sex abuse by many male, and bullying of both sexes in tertiary education level. Anxiety and depression patient are easily stimulated by people around, so should be isolated. Social life should be limited best of all discontinued. My perception on this illness is based on my own experience and research. Even after recovery, sometimes I experiencing an illusion of relapse as I start to feel these symptoms recurring again like affecting my daily life (unable to cook like usual, slow motion, forgetful, difficulties in completing a task properly, hardly take the first step when the worst come to the worst) but without pain in head, especially stimulated again by previous people, things and surroundings while I was sick, meaning I might suffer relapse but yet to if I were unable to handle stress properly.

I was first diagnose with Anxiety and Depression by 7th Mile Policlinic medical officer at 2006 which refers me to get medical attention at 7th Mile Mental Hospital. Due to fear cause by loneliness and lack of family attention, I could not overcome this fear alone and face it myself. I ended up taking medications from Xanax to Serlift at Dr Yii Clinic. I met my husband at year 2008 and he had been giving me full encouragement and support. Years passed in struggling from sickness to a normal life and finally my pain in the head was gone in 2012. Slowly I told my doctor that I had recovered and stop taking anti-depressant pills. Until today, I had never suffer relapse or symptoms of anxiety and depression, other than false feelings. Broke down with tears has been oppressive and less frequent, often not clear of one feelings.

If massage especially of full body massage, foot massage or other types of massage you desired at massage parlous is done for treatment of Anxiety &Depression people who is of disconnection with the reality, it might help in recovery process. Contradiction happens with psychological treatment therapy, which should be withhold due to harm arise. This should be done by experienced and well-trained therapist who works with psychological field. Be caution! A therapist should work closely with a psychiatrist or doctor. The same goes to Schizophrenia patients who suffers from illusion and hallucination due to stress.

Just before my recovery from this illness, another nightmare is awaiting me. I was early alarmed with signs of light voices which even myself too are unaware that those are the early symptoms of Schizophrenia starting 2011 and it worsen in 2012 with severe voice hearing right before the total recovery of Anxiety &Depression since pain is no longer suffered. Family plays an important role in a patient long journey of 6 years in overcoming sickness.